Supreme Self Loving Indulgence
Healthy pride, humility and Self loving indulgence!
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
This is how the marvelous gem “Godfidence” arose in my heart: clearly distinguishing our unconscious mind/self (that makes itself less, more, higher, lower, separate, is absorbed in small self concepts etc) from our superconscious mind/Self (that is OMNI harmonious, equal, transcendent, inclusive, absorbed in the gloriousness of our one true being etc) and embodying healthy pride AS supreme Self love celebrating its beauty! This is what pure pride is: the joy of appreciation. Unhealthy pride is derived from the separate self that fears its own brilliance and being labeled as prideful so wavers between minimizing and magnifying itself until it finds equilibrium in ALL being Self love! Dignifying, upholding and celebrating the whole of life’s majesty (all that IT IS/WE ARE) as the greatest act of service to life, with fruitful esteem.
It’s not possible to be purely humble if we are diminishing our divinity or fashioning a greater power (idol) outside of ourselves. In this, we immediately make ourselves small, unconsciously make others small, deflect our power AS love and deny love its full, luminous expression in the world. Small self exaltation is of the same coin as it is deep insecurity (arising from not knowing one’s true nature) presenting as security that has already diminished itself solely by the act of exaltation. This exquisite trickster makes others greater and itself smaller which is why it has to exalt itself to protect and preserve its identity.
These patterns operate as the inverse of how they’re commonly perceived. What appears as diminishment/“humility” is exaltation. What appears as exaltation is diminishment. Small self diminishment unconsciously exalts itself by judging others as less than their power. (You’re not disempowering yourself with me, I’m more noble.) Small self exaltation unconsciously diminishes itself by judging others as more. (You’re more powerful than me, I’m less worthy and have to compensate). Paradoxically, the plush warm pride of Self celebration is our greatest humility. At the core of all of these energetics are the sweet, tender hearts of children wishing to FEEL the world as a safe space to embody, savor and express their innocence, and ultimately their total radiance as almighty love! This is where we are blessed to have empathy with ourselves and one another.
The conclusion I’ve come to is to let ourselves BE the magnificent tour-de love forces we are, exuding the endless marvels of our being! We are all unique diamonds of genius and, at our core, we are all the same love. May this eternal bond of our origins be what unites and gorgeously fuels us!